in the end

stuck looking back and trying to push forward

why can't this just be easy?! what is the deal?

fight back the tears, stop regretting the last few years

what was I thinking?! what did i do that was so wrong?

try to stay positive and forgive and forget

feeling the pain as the loneliness sets in

hoping and wishing that change would happen

that the special day family friends flowers and vows

when will come for me ? hold on a minute the clouds begin to clear

but why do i feel so sick?!

cause it is not real it was never real did i imagine all those lose years?

what is this life i live? why can't i shake it when will it leave?

rushing day to day to throw away the memories

struggle to build new trust and be open to new things

how can i trust?! when I'm so done!

seems to be the cycle the path i follow round and round

i see it around me i feel it in the street

i see it for them but never for me

it sucks you in with one simple smile

this is not real! this is not for me!

i am strong and iwant to be free

i just want to see it i want to be happy

i want my lost years back!

cry again "oh woh-is-me"

want to feel love! real love for me

don't have to ask don't have to guess

i will see it then i will know what real love is?

what?! REAL LOVE? no not that thing

guess that thing called love just ain't for me....

if i shake off the pain and reach to the sky

i will see, i will be free, i will find real love...

i will find me